I'm Tired

after weeks..
im still thinking..
hw many tears will drop off from my eyes..
hw many thunder will shock my heart day by day..
is getting hard n hard between us...

u nvr understand gal..
u nvr noe wat they wan..
I CANT SEE U ANYMORE..
hw can u say tis kind of joke??
i cry my ass off u noe?
u dunno..
u jz say im emo-ing..
hw can u ask r u ok?
off course everybody will say ok..

tis morning u suddenly msg me say thr is bad news..
u say will tell me after i work..
but u jz run out from house n went to Kuantan..
then Pahang..
wt happen ??
u dun even tell me till i finish my work..

u noe im working 2molo??
till nw i haven sleep jz to wait u go bk..
but when i call u..
i jz heard d sound tat u r jz wake up..
i hope i think too much..
i jz cant stop crying..

pls dont emo again..
im begging u..
i reali reali tired wif ur emo-ing..

Things Change

today u suddenly very emo..
im scare..
i dun even dare to talk to u..
i scare i say d wrong word like last time again..

suddenly u make u make up ur mind to choose degree at Taylor..
then we nt going to Aus anymore?
we nt going to take advance anymore?

suddenly u say u going concert wif Jelly on 14Feb..
we nt going out together tat day anymore?
u nt going to celebrate my bday anymore?

i noe things is going to change soon..
i noe u nt going to be like last time anymore..
but at least u make up ur mind..
im happy wif it..
add oil Bi~ <3

As Sweet as A Candy ~

I <3 my life nw..
pls dun rampas it with all ur conspirasi and white lie..
im nt ditching u guys...
but i reali have her to think about..
i noe u all gonna call me "Pentingkan Awek Sebelum Kawan" but face the fact..
i nvr have tis kind of feeling after 18yrs..
i dare to say she is "The One" <3
i spare the time for u guys but dun put the pressure for me. Can?

She is "The One"
hahahaha..
i keep laughing after i read it..
sori im nt d 1st one to like it..
but im d last 1 to comment..

Love u Love u Love u..
d more u love me d more i scare..
im scare to loosing u..
but u jz swear tat u wont leave me..
i reali happy nw..
i reali feel im very cheerful nw..
thx u so much bi~
i swear tat i wont leave u too..
Love u so much..

im very tired..
im so sleepy...
but i wan u to sleep 1st..
u realise or nt since d 1st day till nw we couple..
u r d 1 who off9 onli i off..
hahahaha..
special case for us..<3

im looking at ur pic till i fall a sleep..
i will let my lappy and skype on..
cz u say let it on and we sleep beside each other till next day..
but at last u off it..
maybe u sleepy and forget..
but nvm..
i let mine on till next day u skype me up..
hahahaha..
G9 bi~ Muackx..<3

I'm Scare

i reali dunno wat to do..
i try to accept ur request as posting we r in relationship..
but once i saw my uncle on9..
i straight away delete it..
IM SORRY..
i noe im nt a gud gf..
i jz can't do it...
im reali reali SORRY..
since d 1st day i noe it's hard for us..
haizz..
i dunno..
i dunno..
i dunno..
dunno wat to do nw..
BLANK..

see my face soo moody right?
jz cant laugh..
watever arif sent to amira i nvr laugh at all although is funny..
Bi~
be urself too k..
i dun wan u act happy in front of me..
dun follow me too..
go to wat u wan in ur heart..
like study..
i dun like boring so i will choose advance..
advance has more practical..
if u reali dun like to cook u can choose degree..
i dun mind..
we still can meet at the same college..
we can wait for each other after class..<3

hehe..
1 more thing..
dun always ask me whr i 1 2 go..
jz bring me anywhr..
go the place tat i nvr been b4..
kahwin lari also can..
as long is wif u im ok wif it..
when i 1 2 go the place i will tell u k..
if i dun like i will tell u too..
i promise i won't keep secret within us..
hehe..
Bi wanna noe smtg??
i jz cry b4 our skype chatting..XS

can we go Aus??
i jz wanna leave here..
i feel so uneasy at here..:-(

FFML

u jz say u try for 1 yr to make her family accept u..
but after 1yr..
u give up..
so~
after 1yr is same will happen to me too??
urghh !!
FML !! FML !! FML !!
jz FFML!!
i noe wat i wish for it will nvr come true..
it jz a dream..
i will wake up after days..

rmbr ystd u say u keep reading Chapter 8..
it reali scared me..
i scared smtg will happen..
i nvr sleep well d whole nite..
i guess tonite too..

jz a dream..
i will try to forget bout wat u say..
Love u always..<3

Liar !!

i hate liar !!
i reali reali hate liar !!
btw i lie a lot too..
i noe hw it feel nw..
sorry to all d ppl i lie to..
sorry for nt being a gud fren too..

Anep, Jelly, Hafiz, Amirul !!!
4 of u !!
is out from my list !!
i won't trust u guys anymore..
and u guys jz break the relationship of 2 yrs fren wei..

ANEP !!
u ask me go Penang but at last u cancel it..
cz u say u promise Nana teman her..
then nite go Langkawi wif ur cousin..
baiknye cousin kau kan?!!

HAFIZ !!
u ask me to believe u?
hahahaha..
wat a joke!! FAG!!
hw hard i believe u and told u everything..
and u jz lie..
nw i noe u..
u say u gt a plan wif ur fren at KL..
but at last u at Penang..
hahahahaha..

Jelly !!
i nvr believe ur words..
btw..
u jz lie to ur bro..
ur 2yrs bro..
u noe hw he feel?
u nvr noe till u reali gt cheated 1 day..

Amirul !!
wat a hero boy..
go some gal house lepak?
gt to teman ur fren to find his gf?
u think u r wat?
Brandon Boy?!!
fuck off !!
another liar!!

BYE BYE !!

Racist Mom

i gt a racist mom...
i noe u dun like i making fren wif malay and india..
come on la..
it's jz fren wei..
i dun even couple wif them tat time..
but nw yes i am couple wif a malay guy..
it doesn't matter malay, chinese or india..
as long as he love me very much and im fine wif it..
and i choose d way to becum a christian last time..
u will also will find a way to stop me..
Y? Y? Y?
it's belong to the heart who he/she believe to..
u can't force them..
pls forgive me tat i hv choose a malay to becum my bf nw..
i noe u still can't accept it..
so i jz keep secret for it till u reali understand me..

i rmbr u alway say dun choose malay cz they will make CURSE on me..
i rmbr u alway say dun choose india cz they will HIT their wife..
but d bf/husband i choose for future i promise it won't happen this..
dun worry about me..
i noe wat im doing..
i hope u can accept him one day..
MISS U MOM..<3

Hubby is Back !!

hahahaha..
my hubby is bk..
my hubby is bk..
weeee~~
cant wait to see him..<3
getting crazy right nw..
i keep post smtg at fb..
Apple is feeling happy..
Apple is in gud mood..
Apple wan a kiss..
Apple wan a hug..
hahahaha...

nw waiting for him to go bk home and on9 wif me..
once again..
counting down..
tik..tok..tik..tok..XD

Chocolate Fair

Chocolate !!!
yummy~
my favourite~ <3
my fren invite me to Chocolate Fair at fb..
i want to go!!
it's on 7Jan-9Jan..
i cant go..:-(
im going to Hatyai..
buy me chocolate !!!
buy me chocolate !!!
hehehehehe...
and take pic k..
i wan post at fb..
hiak hiak hiak..

Plan Changed !!!

Bi~
jz talk wif my cousin..
she told me 8Jan go Hatyai !!
nt 15Jan anymore..
damm son~
hw hw hw ??
my work wei !!
should i work ?
or should i delay??
confused nw..
haizz..
i need to be at Ipoh by 7Jan..
coz they taking bus to Hatyai..
is 6hrs journey..
my as is going to be very very pain..@_@
and i nvr tell my family in going to Hatyai..
hahahahaha..
shit right?
my family is going to killed me..XS
do u want anything at thr? <3

2hr30min more..
im waiting..
tik..tok..tik..tok..
hahaha...

Secret

i gt some secret to tell u..
hehehe..
guess wat..
jz realise so many dc32 ppl like me...
hahahahahaha..
u r so lucky..
hiak hiak hiak...

Nabil like me !!! >,<
Hafiz like me !!! >,<
Afiq LOVE me !!! <3
hahahahahaha..

Nabil nvr give up since term 5..
bzzz..
wat should i do?
i keep reject him but he still nvr change..
he always say i love u so hard and u jz nvr realise..
he text me at fb, skype..
i purposely nvr reply..
ystd he ask me go out..
and i reject it..
he say he 1 2 propose to me ystd..
and i jz reject it..
he jz say nvm..
still gt a lot of time..@_@
then he also text me wish me Happy New Year..
he hope i hv feeling on him by tis yr...=_="
i reply him at 130am..
purposely late reply..
then he sent thx..love me so much..he will try his best to make me happy..bla bla bla..
4am..
he text me again say tat he already reach home..luv me again..

tis is 1 of the story onli..
i gt more and more and more..
hahaha..
it's reali Complicated life..

5 more hrs and u r bak...
wee~~
cant wait to see u..
LOVE u~

Happy New Year !!!

Happy New Year for everybody..
im wishing everybody Happy New Year at fb @ 12am ?!!
damm son ~
hahaha..
it was quiet fun..
searching old frens and wished them..
my padang gt wireworks..
it was so nice..
but u r nt here to watch wif me..:-(
u promise me to celebrate it together by next yr..
if u ffk again i will bite u..XD
i hope every big festival we can celebrate together..<3
my phone keep ringing..
all d NY msg cuming in..

actually after texing u at 9pm..
i sleep till fireworks wake me up..
luckily i nvr miss this New year..lol
my bk was so pain till i cant walk..
i jz lying down on my bed and rest..
but it's better nw..
no worry..^_^

i wish u r here to celebrate wif me..
huging me and kissing my forehead...
we watching fireworks together..
i noe it was jz a dream..
forget about tat..haha..

i jz cant wait for u to cum bk..
7pm..
i hope nw is 7pm..
im counting down..
18hrs more..
i wish to control the time..XD

Happy New Year To U Bi~
Mission for 2011~
Have a Happy Journey wif Bi till end of the world~

Day 3

i sleep at 5am and i wake up at 10am..
5hrs sleep..
i dun feel like to wake up..
but i promise my fren to go out..
i went to Sunway jz nw..
i gt an interview..
sell hp..
salary is better than pizza..
so which 1 i should go for?
suggestion pls??
after interview i go eat XXL chicken..
extra spicy..yummy~ <3
after hv my lunch i went for mv..
Gulliver's Travel
bajet mv..but very funny..XD
my fren say Tourist is nice..
let's go watch together k?
couple sit ? lol
after mv Nabil text me say tat he already reach KL..
whr 1 2 lepak ltr..
ermm..
i dunno 1 2 go or nt..
i dun feel like going out wif him..
ystd hang out wif hafiz also like akward onli..@_@
so wat should i do bi?
i reali hope u r here and bring me out..
i dun want go wif others..
i jz wanna go out wif u..
720pm nw..
i noe i will receive ur msg by tis time..
hahaha..
i can sent as much msg as i can..
i no need talk to wall anymore..
cz it's jz 15sen per msg..
hiak hiak hiak..
miss u..
continue writing by tonite..
Ta~da~

Can't Sleep :-(

hahahaha..
i haven sleep..
im tired..
but i jz dun feel sleepy..
wish u r here to teman me sleep..

i went to Pyramid to renew my sim card..
GG..
i went to buy new number..
GG..
i went movie wif Jelly, Hafiz and Anep..
GG..
FML..
today everything GG..
d most funny thing is we went for mv..
i check on9 it written cinema 10..
but by tat time we go thr..
we went in cinema 10 is indian mv..
hahaha..
then go to cinema 9..
also indian mv..
cinema 8..
malay mv..
damm son..
whr is d room for Tron?
Hafiz face damm panic wei..
so funny..
me n Jelly keep laughing..
but at last we jz walk bk..
we go to mamak under bridge..
i eat tomyam + teh O ice..
onli rm5..XD
after eat we went to CC to play L4D..
Jelly play like shit..
he purposely dun go in the safe room..
and we dunno jelly is playing wif us..XS
we went bk at 4am..
damm !!
i 4get my grandma still keep d lauk for me..
n i hv to eat it..
after eat..
i jz kacau ppl at fb..
im bored..
i chat wif Fad and Muhammad Falique..
me and Falique plan to go Beroga Hill on 8th Jan..
can i go ? can i go?
can we go together?
u sure agree right?
cz i noe u love me so much..
hahahahahaha...
i miss u..
im waiting till 830am surely u will text me..
i hav a nap 1st..
wake up at 830am n reply ur msg..
g9 bi~ miss u..<3

My Dream

i hate u DREAM!!
always give me a bad dream..
at last give a sweet dream la..
pls let me dream smtg bout him..

nw i reali dream smtg bout him..
again bad dream bout him..
i dream bout my family dun accept him..
who ever i choose sure my family dun like..
hw sad i cry..
hw hard i explain..
they jz dun accept..
NO MEANS NO..
fuck wei..

i noe tis will be real happen soon..
my mom jz cant accept it..
my dad is ok..
but hw bout my relatives?
haizz..
i dunno wat to nw..

no matter wat happen i wont leave u..
so do u ok?
i miss u..<3

Day 2

im sitting on my bed..
im rolling on my bed..
im drinking on my bed..
im eating on my bed..
im sleeping on my bed..
im SICK wif my bed !!!
it was so bored !!!

wat i 1 2 do today ??
i dunno wat i do today..
it's 430pm nw..
im facing the fb for 5hrs..@_@
planting..
chatting..
commenting..
is bored !!
FACEBOOK is bored !!

im need to get out from tis house..
i wan go Pangkor..
i wan go Langkawi..
i need a vacation !!!
will u go wif me ? >,<

im going out to Pyramid at 6pm..
i go active my number and find job..
wanna join me ?

im waiting 730pm to reach...
i noe u will text me by tat time..
hehehehe..

ah!!
i wanna scold u !!
i wanna hit u !!
i wan bite u !!
coz u soaked in rain !!
i dun wan u to sick..
take care of urself ok..

im sick wif the weather..
Hari Mendung..
make me fell so cold..
flu!!
fever!!
all come..
it make me fell so tired..
jz hope u r here so i can hug u and sleep..:-*

Letter for them..

stop posting d word tat so meant to me..
i noe it's for me..
n stop say u love me..

i noe i hurt u guys a lot..
im sorry..
i jz can't choose d correct way..
i choose u i will hurt others..
i choose other i will hurt u..
wat should i do?
someone pls tell me wat to do..
hw bout if i jz leave here?
gud idea right?

u guys can find a better gf..
im nt a gud gf / wife..
i bad..
i nt as gud as u think..
im nt cute..
im fat..
im ugly..

i jz wanna be ur fren..
i dun expect more..
pls do treat me as a fren..
i noe i hurt u guys alot..
sori for my BAD WORD..

go find ur future wife and let me see..
u guys do deserved a better 1..
GUD LUCK for u guys..
im sori~

Day 1

i set my alarm at 445am so i can wake up b4 u..
till 5am i wan wake u up..
but GG..
my hp smtg wrong..
i wake up at 6am..
when i wake up i saw ur msg..
i very happy to see ur msg..
i miss u a lot..
but im too tired to reply u..
sori Bi~

i wake up at 919am..
haha..
i was late for work..
i call to office..
luckily no need to go so early..
12pm onli go..
phew..

i was keep waiting and waiting for ur msg..
y 12pm also haven recelved ur msg?
pls dun leave me..
tis was wat i think..
so stupid right? :-(

i finish work at 445pm today..
i walk bk home..
i pass by d padang near my house..
i miss we sitting thr chat..<3

i went bk sleep till u text me..
yeah ~ finaly gt ur msg..
haha..
i wish to received ur msg non-stop..
but its too expensive so i dun let u sent for me..

1130pm..
i curang..
hahahahs..
i skype wif Nabil..
i jz cant sleep..
im bored !!
faster cum bak !!!
i wan skype wif u..
i noe u dun like skype..
nvm :-)

2molo i hv no work..
is damm boring..
haizz..
i wish u r here and we can go date..<3
gud nite Bi~ miss u~

Chapter 8

Afiq Khairuzaman !!! <3
i miss u a lot..
i jz cant wait to see u..
i noe u went Bali wif ur family..
and u break d promise to celebrate New Year wif me..
but nvm..
i will wait till u cum bk..
no matter hw many days u went..
i will wait till u cum bk..
i will wait till i die..X_X

our journey jz start 5days ago..
i hope it will long, last for forever..
i rmbr d word u say to me..
u r d best i ever had..
hahahaha..
so touching #^_^#

u like me for quiet long edi right?
but u jz dunno wat u want..
i knew it !! XD
i noe through ur msg..
d way u talk..
d way u treat me..
is diffent wif others..
u sent a lot weird msg for me..
but i jz ignored it..
i always say u r DRUNK !!
i noe it will nt happen..
i jz said to myself stop dreaming..
i jz couldn't stop d dream..
i keep dreaming..
i hope i nvr wake up from this dream..

at last u wake me up..
u wake me up and u still beside me..
i noe it was nt a dream anymore..
finally i can be myself..

ermmm..
after u read my blog u will noe who am i..
anyway i jz respect ur answer..
if anything happen..
jz rmbr u alway in my heart.. <3

Chapter 7

TGV boy..
i gt a lot of crush at TGV..
hehe..
but i jz nvr start it wif them..
i noe they will fight for it..
the most i love is black..
u noe wat i say..
read d story "Warm Shoulder"
he same age wif u..
he jealous a lot..
when i talk to other guys he will cum n pull me out from d conversation..
we went for break together..
we work in same station together..
we even went bak and hang out together..
2yr++ n i end it up!!
i went to Vietnam training..
coz of the training end up the relationship between us..
he ask me nt to go..
i keep think bout it..
should i leave or nt?
i need to do smtg for my future..
so i choose d way to leave..
after 3 months we nvr contact each other..
i went bk to TGV..
he gt his new GF..
i was shock..
but i noe it was my fault to leave him..
hope he will happy for forever..
:-)