Be Myself

People say "just be yourself" all the time..
but seriously..
when im looking at them..
i can clearly see they are not better off than me...
even thought they think they have got everything figure out..
do they even noe who they are??
they have family, friends, plans, money(or not), job(or studies)...
but take it all away wat's left??
do they know who they are when everything falls away??
NO!!

the problem is having the strength to BE that person..
because the person is soooo~ different wif THIS person..

wishing i could just FIT IN FOR ONCE..
be like everyone else..
im so scare they wont like the REAL me and the won't agree things wif wat i say n think..

i need to let go and just BE..
i need to dress up the way i want..
say the things i wan to say..
do the things tat i wan to do..
i hv to STOP being who everyone else want me to be..

The quiet, smart, good-gal act has got to go..
where's that personality that i just noe is dying to get out..
tat's a gud place to start..
letting my personality show..

so...
here's to taking that first terifying steps.. <3

FML

wat is going on by tis few weeks??
so many things happen..
it was so confusing!!
wat am i going to do?
should i walk out ?
or let it be?
today is xmas..
do i deserve for it ?
FML!
i gt d 3rd present..
n i jz noe d story of the present..
wat am i going to do nw?!!
everybody is acting ab-normal nowaday..
who can help me ?
i need to talk to somebody..
but i jz cant trust anyone..
wat i wan nw?
i seriously dunno..
hoping for the question and answer yes ?
ermm..maybe..XS

Dear Botak~

Why i say I LIKE YOU to u?!!
it was wrong!!
i shouldn't say tat..
im sorry..
i jz hope everything back to normal..
i miss the time we chat...
i miss the time we hang out together...
i miss the time we work together...
i miss everything we do together...
is it possible to back to normal?
i reali hope for it..
i got a lot question to ask u..
and nw i dun dare to ask bout it anymore..
i dun wish after i ask will getting worst n worst..
i MISS every time every moment we spent..
i CARE every time every moment we spent..
bk to normal..
pls bk to normal..
tat's all i wish~

Girl's Care

Girl don't care if you have no money, she cares about is that you will not be strenuous effors to change the status.
Girl don't care if you live with difficulties, she care about is that you will not be difficulties, not evade.
Girl don't care if you grow more handsome, she care about is that you give enough sense of security.
Girl don't care if you and your specific friends how good, she care about is that you could concentrate on her good.
Girl don't care if you give her gift there is more expensive, she care about is that you will always give her surprise.
Girl don't care if you have more loftly ambitions, she care about is that you are not an hornest man.
Girl don't care if you have more romantic, she care about is that you can feel her love from the life.
Girl don't care if you can spent everyday with her, she care about is that you can think about her every moment.
Girl don't care if you can give her a big meet in material life, she care about is often a concern.
Girl don't care about your present situation, she care about is you keep her to see your future.
Girl don't care about how intimate the relationship between you and her, she care about is that you will not be responsible.
Girl don't care you to share the joy with, she care about is can you share the grief.
Girl don't care with your endure hardship, she care about is to accompany you till final was not her.....

CAMOUFLAGE

obviously wanted to cry, but still laughing..
obviously still cared, but pretending nothing..
obviously wanted to stay, but firm said to leave..
obviously very painful, but just say im happy..
just forget it, but had forgotten..
it doesn't fit, says he is he, me is me..
obviously not, but i've had enough..
it is the opposite of the truth, but that is your truth..
obviously the tears are quickly overflow, but high orbit..
obviously already irretrievably, it still persist..
knew he was injured, but you dont have to think anything bout me..
obviously this CAMOUFLAGE very tired, yet still.....

warm shoulder..

I miss his warm shoulder..
i dunno we like each or wat..
he will always give me a surprise..
last month same shift same position wif him..
FLOOR
when i feel tired he hug me to his chest and hav a nap..
9/3/10 he hug me watch movie inside cinema..
10/3/10 he text me say tat he luv me..
14/3/10 he walk in n hug me when i feel cold..
i feel safe when he is beside me..
his fren told me tat he say he like me..
but he nvr told me tat..
n i jz kiri masuk kanan keluar..
today i jz finish my class and he suddenly text me again..
ask where am i..
hmm..
i dunno wat he want..
and i will nvr noe about it for forever..

New Year New Life..

hmm..i have been more then half year nvr cum up lor..
i lost memory about the password..
nw rmbr bak edi..XD

i was training at COPTHORNE ORCHID HOTEL from Oktober till December 2009
there are many things happen inside
i hate the sad scene
nvm..
new year new life..
i will try to forget about it!!!

Now bak to New college, Taylor's Lakeside Campus..
OMG!!!
totally suckx!!!
the college is not ready yet and they ask us to study at there..WTH!!!
the classroom air-corn is hot like a Oven
NO 1 noe how to on the air-corn =_="
some even spoil..
and the table is small like a mouse..
put a pensel box then there is no more space to write
no table at all!!!
where to put my bottle?where to put my bag??
Food court are totally suckx too..
nw jz have few batch moving in..
how if all the taylor student from other campus also move in?
there is no more space to let us have a place to eat..
n ther food are totally expensive..
it cost me RM7.50 for a mix rice..
RM4.80 for a chicken rice..
Walao wei!!!
we jz a student nt a rich man..
Hope can move bak to old campus..
there are more facilities n transportation too..